For years, I struggled with self confidence. Now, there are probably many reasons behind this, but one thing that I can attribute it to is not knowing what I liked style-wise. I went through a period where I was dressing what some would call “emo”. I have, up until recently, struggled to know what I like to wear and what looks good on my body.
I would describe my personal style now as bohemian, but also hipster and artsy. I like flowy, and high-waisted stuff. (I know that doesn’t mean anything specific, but I’m not very sure of how else to explain it).
Over the past few years, I’ve changed my style a lot, but I think it’s been a good thing for me. By finding a style that I like and that looks good on me. This has ultimately allowed me to gain confidence in myself, and carry myself differently than I did years ago. Overall, I think finding my own style made a huge difference in my confidence growth
As part of the journey to good mental health, I started journaling a couple months ago. I started with my own version of bullet journaling. It helped me personally take notes on why I might feel some way. It was a good way to hold myself accountable for behavior that can affect my feelings. I’ve also decided that recording feelings of everything from tiredness to boredom is probably something good to track.
I’m still figuring out what works for me as far as mood and mental health tracking. I think it’s important to know what might trigger certain feelings, as well as what some feelings are caused by. So maybe, in the future, I think it would be good to try to associate certain feelings to my mental state, instead of saying they came out of nowhere.
Before I even start this post, let it be said that it took me a long time to get to where I am, and I still have a long way to go. Being [seemingly] surrounded by people that are skinny and beautiful can be a downer at times. The media portrays a certain type of body as beautiful, and when you feel like you don't feel like you fit in that standard, it can really affect your confidence.
My body positivity made a big deal in improving my mental health. Accepting that my body was worthy of love really improved my day-to-day life by a lot. I’ve started realizing that in order to help other people love themselves, I need to be an example. To help raise other people up, I need to feel like I am worth it too.
My positivity about my body has improved over the past few years, but it’s not where I need it to be. I work toward better self love and body positivity by carrying myself with confidence, being myself, and smiling. I know it might sound dumb, but when I carry myself with a certain amount of confidence, it helps me feel better, and can help me be a better example to people working toward the same goal.
After my very needed self care break, I feel ready enough to take on the next few months of blogging. I’ve also decided to start writing more about mental health, because by talking about it, not only do we help each other, but we help end the stigma one by one.
My anxiety and depression work together to make some of my days hard. These are the days where I might not move for a couple hours, binge watching dumb Youtube videos all day. These are the days that my self care become important. Some of my self care might not seem that major, but it feels good to do some simple things when you don’t know what else to do.
My self care things include:
While it is mid-year, I feel there is nothing better for achieving your goals than putting them out into the world. So, with my birthday just passing, and more things to accomplish, here are some of my personal goals.